“To love without knowing how to love wounds the person we love.”

Pet fucking peeves

1. The nonanswer. If you want to degrade and demoralize someone, it's a great idea to simply not respect their speech. WHY THE FUCK YOU'D WANT TO DO THAT IS A MYSTERY. This is another weapon in the arsenal of inhumane tactics it's totally okay to use on women you love or have loved. Why you would choose behaviours that degrade someone's humanity - that's a good question - why would anyone ever do that - unless, of course, they think they'are seriously more valuable as a human and your well-being is not their goal?? Fuck people doing this. Do not do this. Women aren't your underlings. If you aren't scared of losing her respect and admiration you're a complete waste of her time. Worse - you waste her time and injure her with your stupidity.

Dating is not a war so WTF are you doing? (post #2 for straight men)

Your collective behavior can only be interpreted as a cry for help. Fear not. Help is everywhere. In fact, help has always been everywhere. This is one of the most excruciating aspects of being female in this culture. We're pretty much waiting around for the chance to help you and you keep kicking us in the teeth. Again, I will not hear your arguments about women being crazy. IF YOU BREAK SOMEONE'S SANITY you lose the right to complain about their insanity. Clear? So far I've never broken a woman's sanity, so this whole crazy side you refer to is your crime and your doing. You should, in fact, be indicted for that. You don't get bitching rights about damage that you, yourself, have caused. If someone even has the audacity to think the words "it takes two to tango" I will hunt you down and kill you in your dreams.

When someone is discounted as not fully human they will probably go insane eventually. You want to complain about your crazy mother? Your crazy aunts? Sisters? GF's? CHANGE YOUR OWN BEHAVIOR. It's like magic, really. It's like watching straight women hang out and play with their gay male friends. Miraculously these women are always having a blast with people who treat them, well...like people. So, jealous no more! You no longer have to wonder why she's so much more relaxed and cool around her pals than she is with you - they are good to her!

I think men are due for a reality check - they've got women pretty whipped right now. Women don't care much about or are confused about Feminism, they still have little earning power, their prestige is still lower than men's, and now they have to contend with the "pornapocalypse" of unchecked violence and humiliation that is rewriting the definition of "subhuman". But they've got everyone saying that that's okay. The veil is okay. The porn is okay. Stealing my potential and my psychological health is okay. Destroying any chance we have of experiencing deep relationships and sex with men is OKAY. It's okay with people. They talk about how many reasons it's okay. It's not okay. How could this ever be okay? Can most of you even kiss a woman well (again, I am only addressing hetero men here - gay culture is different and has its own issues)? Can you? Do you even know? Do you have the slightest clue what you're doing, or are you stumbling through it like everything else, because people make excuses for your ineptitude? Physical contact constitutes billions of unique languages - the one you speak with another is its own language - that particular language is created by and for you and that one lover. Each one is the product of billions of years of evolution and your own life of impressions, experiences, and desires. Even if it's not romantic, this is what is available to us in our sex lives. Unending creation and discovery. You do a disservice to the word "sex" by using it to refer to whatever happens to go on with your dick, no matter how checked out you are.

Tragically, that's not even in the realm of many people's imagination, much less their worldview. People talk about sex like it's a simple thing, like getting off and having sex are the same thing, like getting off is better, in a way. I'm not sure how we got here. Oh right - patriarchy. Which you think is benefitting you. Not having rights to your one and only wild soul is not a benefit - just in case you're unclear on the exchange. Being artificially stalled in your emotional development in order to fit a societal standard of disconnected, zombie-like behavior is not winning. The only thing is that even though you're losing your true inheritance as a human being, you get a little power over other people. You get to basically live like a fuck up but instead of calling you out, the society builds a web of industries to support not only the fiction of who you are but convincing everyone else that their greatest achievement would be to successfully tailor their own behavior to yours, so that you feel like you can "relate" to them. So you don't feel threatened by their questioning your brutal stupidity. So all you ever have to do is look uncomfortable with a situation and everyone will scramble to adjust reality to meet your numbed out, tepid comfort level.

If you approach your life like it's meant to suit you, instead of looking at how your life and the lives of others intersect to influence, shape, grow and care for one another in a progression that is not controlled by your comfort level, well...you get what you get. Not only is that useless and life-stifling for you, but you're meant to be interacting and infusing the lives of others with your spirit and your heart - and you're not. So you're pulling that bullshit on everyone, not just yourself. It's time to talk about that.

You're Doing It Wrong - Yes, Everything, But Especially Breaking Up

From here on out this blog will mostly talk about American men and their social, emotional, and relational habits resulting from their total emotional abandonment by almost every single person in their lives. I am DONE with people not talking about this. This is probably one of the biggest reasons we have destroyed the planet so needlessly - men are willfully isolated emotionally and then they cannot be fully human.
I do not care if everyone thinks I'm completely cracked. It hurts - physically - to continue to leave this topic unexamined. I don't want to talk to women about men - I want to talk to men about men. As a lesbian (homoflexible but culturally a lesbian), as a person who has always considered herself to be somewhat in the middle in terms of social gender categories, I say to you: YOU'RE DOING IT WRONG.
I want to help. This is not a debate. This is a lifeline. I will not discuss. I will not do a comment thread. I will not listen to your point of view. I will use hyperbole. I will make generalizations. If you're a man who has figured these things out then EXCELLENT for you but do not ever say to me: not all men. Because ALL MEN. Of course there are exceptions - this blog isn't for them and they know it because they see the same bullshit I see. People raised as men - this isn't about negating anyone's true identity - this is about looking at the intentional disguises we force boys and men to wear in this culture and how the emperor has no clothes. This is a very deep honoring of men and a demand that they be more active, honest, and open in their struggles and their relational lives. This terror of silence MUST END. In an effort to get this karmic duty of mine out of my personal life, I am taking it public.

I'm So Done Breaking Up With You in Silence and Misery

It doesn't have to be this way. I simply cannot fathom walking away from or ignoring a lover. Do not walk away from someone who needs to talk with you. If you like someone enough to be dating them, then it would be a fantastic idea to act that way as long as you know them unless they do the sorts of things that leave a person feeling dehumanized and degraded. Otherwise, um yeah - you're in this together.

Stop acting insane once you touch someone's body. RESPECT YOUR GOOD FORTUNE. If you are lucky enough to have someone to screw, respect your luck and remember what irresistible pleasure that person is able to create with you, by the grace of your nervous system and theirs. WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU TREAT SOMEONE WHO CAN GET THAT REACTION GOING WITH YOU LIKE THEY'RE NOT A SMALL MIRACLE??? I do not know. I don't want to know. I've had sex with a lot of women and honestly have never been treated like anything less than part of their inner circle afterwards. It's enough to make you think women aren't the problem. Because they're not. I have not slept with many men - it's too awful (not the sex, the people) to want to do often. When I have, I am continually shocked and depressed by the sheer inhumanity displayed towards me. And this is from men I clearly once considered to be good people, since we've dated. But no. I am a lesbian, motherfuckers - I do not believe your bullshit about women being crazy. I've broken up with lots of women - IT'S FINE. To this day I have never broken up with a woman to see her transform into a devil. Not once. I've seen anger, lies, hysterics, etc, etc - never saw one of them turn into something not human - quite the opposite. I would say almost every man I've dated has turned into something not human during the break up. An entirely different person. Straight men make women the enemy during break ups. Let it be known that that is insane. You know who your enemy is, dudes? YOU. Men are allowed to turn into absolute monsters and no one calls them out - I'm calling it out. Relationships take guts. If you don't have any, start working on it. If you have the will to address the blank space where your interpersonal bonding ability should be, you can fix it. And you should. You will be happier. And so will the people in your life.

If you like someone enough to have sex with them, I would try to remember that after having sex with them. Sex is for grown ups. If you are so traumatized that the intimacy of sex turns you into Godzilla and you know this from past lovers - you really have no business going there with someone unless you are at the very least working on the issue (openly - not fake working on it in your own mind).

That's it - I did it - I put something constructive out there - this is the beginning of a long discussion of male socialization, why we all want to wring your necks, and how to begin to address it. Sexism is not personally your fault, but it is sure as hell your responsibility to eradicate. Or you can go on being miserable and ruining everything. This is for all of us to fix, but men aren't trying, and it's work, people, it's work.

Next time: HOW TO DO IT RIGHT